Tagged by CMate: First Time

There is a first time for everything in life. The first time we stand on our feet, the first word we say, the first time we cry, the first car we drive, the first kiss, the first love, etc. The irony of it all is without the first, there would never be the last. I got tagged for the FIRST time by CMate. Well, here's my list of first times.

1.) First time having a friend.

I choose to say it’s her – Julie Yim Wei Wan. I came to know her at SMKS9. She gave me the first impression as one sombong gal. But as I got to know her, she proved to be one true friend. My great listener - almost every family complaints went to her ears when we were on the phone during my high school days. Also my very own Pembimbing Rakan Sebaya. ;)

2.) First time knowing love.

Only Diary knows.

3.) First time drinking alcohol.

Started swallowing Shandy at the age of 10. :))

4.) First time working full-time.

While waiting for my SPM result, I worked as a full time data entry clerk for about 3 months in OOCL PJ. :)

5.) First time dating a guy.

Dating Thomson, my brother, lolx ;)

6.) First time dancing in the rain.

At the age of 11 or 12, just after school, when it rained, I played in the rain with Li Min. Lots of fun! Wheee..!

7.) First time kissing a guy.

Yet to have my first kiss on my wedding day. xoxo

8.) First time singing in public.

Performing for Christmas with Sunday School Children, I was 10.

9.) First time being kissed by non-family person.

Nope, I don’t permit people to kiss me simply. I am reserved. :)

10.) First time confessing love.

I confessed love to someone at the age of 16, in my own secretive way though. Gotta button my lips so the truth won't slip ;)

11.) First Time Tagging:

Ms Fashionista Julie Yim, Hubby Jen Ai, Lil Bro Vin Tsen, CC Quaint Melody, Sanam The Love, Joyce Rocks, Therapist XL Doggiegal, Twin Sis Kang Ning, and Pui Mun Lollipop Girl,

Do you still remember your first time moments?

When You Say Nothing At All

I went for one memorable event where Hodey, Nary, Mhico were there as well, a bitter place where Mhico warned me publicly not to disturb Hodey anymore. 

 (Mhico is one insecure married lady. She is close to Nary. Both of them are married and are about the same age. As they share quite a number of things in common, they click well. In short, Mhico and Nary are besties.)

Indirectly, she was calling me slut and bitch. Almost everyone heard what she told me quite so loudly. Nary heard it and she was happy and smiled that Mhico supported her. 

 I pretended as though not hearing Mhico. Inside I couldn’t help but to feel darn upset that Hodey failed to defend me. He didn’t utter a word at all. The blame seemed to be on me alone.

Why did you treat me that way? It was like you’re not serious at all. As though I’m the only one after you, just a stupid toy for you to play with when Nary is too busy for you.

I'm not cheap. 

I’m not a slut. 

I’m not a bitch. 

I’m just your girl. 

You say it worst when you say nothing at all.

Happy Birthday My Daddy Dearest

Today is the day I celebrate,
My Daddy Dearest, your great big heart.

Happy birthday to you,
I am so glad that you are My Daddy!

God bless you always dearest Dad,
And your special loving heart.

Love,

Angel Daughter

One Hopeless Dream

It was a wonderful dream. Yup, I finally got to see it. It was really, clearly, merely a dream. SG is truly going out with the gal. It is now confirmed - They are a pair, officially, right under my nose.

To be sad or not, I truly don't know. Maybe the best thing to do is just be happy and wish them "Congrats!"

He told me already, his feeling for me is no more. : "Feeling's over. No more. It's zero."

I knew it from the start, that most younger guys are like that. Nowadays, most of them define love as just feeling. And once the sensation's gone, they call it quits. Which is why, now, I favour mature men more.

Well, I expected it, but just being a little bit sorrowful, realizing that it lasted for such a short period. So fast, and he changed.

Perhaps, I should learn to look at the brighter side and thank goodness that I didn't proceed with him or else the sadness might be even greater than this.

Honestly, I don't feel quite good experiencing this. But now it's over. I should be grateful that at least, at least, I know where to run to each time this happens.

Hope you're here by now...

Save The Best For The Last

Seeing him with her doesn't put a smile on my face at all. But I know that this is reality and I have to face it no matter what. He'll be happier if I learn to treat her right too. Yes, I fight and question why will she get almost everything better. From time to time, I desire what she gets.

When he's not around, loneliness is what I feel and I hope he could be beside me. He told me that in case I'm in need of anything, I can come to him and he'll give me a helping hand if he can. Happy to hear that, but I know I want something else - which he won't be able to provide, it's just not right.

He later sat beside me and we had a heart to heart talk.

He told me, "...because you're still a virgin. It's not that I don't love you but you should keep that for someone else. Save the best for the last."

Unready To Be Given Away

The wedding discussion has brainwashed me for sure. Although I’m not the one getting married, exactly the night after the meeting, I slept and dreamt of my own wedding.

However, I didn’t get to see the face of my groom. Only two men I saw - none of them were my groom though. Within, I fought to choose which hand to hold. Still, face glowing, they seemed happy.

But for me, deep inside I realized I wasn’t that happy. For I know I was not ready to be given away...

Perhaps, this was due to me being so attached to him.

Or possibly because I’m just 19 - too young to get married?

Sweet Memories From Future BIL

Wednesday, 10th Sept 2008, Kim-O aka future BIL arrived late for the meeting due to his working busyness. He sat beside me because there were no more space left. After the meeting we had a group discussion, regarding a special plan. So there were papers in front of everyone. Then, I heard future BIL silently called me. So I went nearer to him. He started writing on the piece of paper that he had and I just watched.

He firstly wrote all these - hmmm, with this level of sincerity, forgiven for sure! :))

Later, he grabbed another paper to spontaneously drew this and asked me to find my birthday cake - a little fun indeed! :D

Next, another paper was used - he played tic-tac-toe with me and purposely let me won just to wish me happy birthday! - Simple yet sweet, I must say. :))

Lastly, we had fun unscrambling words...

But gosh, my sis later found out!!!

So she circled the word " sweet" plus added the "only 4 me" label.

Man, happiness spoiler lah! XD

LOLX

Dear Future BIL, thanks for all these cute drawings, as I'm the type of person who likes to keep memories, these are considered precious. I'm keeping them with me - they are mine ;P

A Heart For You

Last night, I found out that my Ji Mui aka Princess of Dang dedicated a little something for me.

Not only in her MSN...

Also in her SingingCoconut Diary! :D

Ahhh, my Princess sister has got a HEART for sure!

Thanks Ji Mui, you make me feel special for that moment.

Simple yet nice, Ji Mui :D

Dear Ji Mui, I want to show the nation my appreciation too :)

My turn to SUPERBOMB you now, lalala :P

#1: Facebook Bomb

#2: Friendster Bomb

#3: Plurk Bomb

Conclusion: We the Princesses have <3 HEARTS <3 yay!!!

How about you, do you have a heart too?

If yes, then what are you waiting for? Heart me now! ;) :P

Your Favourite

He came upstairs and walked to my bed. I was waken up by the voice of my favourite boy:

"Wake up, wake up, Aunty Jasmine! Happy Birthday, I got presents for you!"

A great feeling indeed, hearing the voice of your loved one at your bed, waking you up - wonderful! I gave him my smiles, said thank you and continued sleeping like a pig ^.^

Minutes later, I went downstairs and gave him a big hug and told him how happy he made me feel.

On my way to college, I exchanged sms with Leng Leng (Nic's Mummy):

JustJasmine: Dear Leng Leng, this morning Nic woke me up and greeted me with happy birthday plus handed me those gifts. Man, he brightened my day for sure. So sweet. Thanks to you for that boy.

Leng Leng: He has been very 'kan cheong' to give you a birthday present coz u r his fav :) Everyday mention only Aunty Jasmine. My many thanks to all of you too for taking good care of them. This is definitely the Lord's blessing :)

Soon after reading that, my love tank level increased quite hugely because...

I feel less BLue when I know I'm your favourite

Just 19

To start off, I must say I had a quite great birthday yesterday - love felt.

Pauline and her diamond bought a lovely cake for me after fetching me from college. I first thought that I wont have a birthdaycake this year - due to some personal reasons. Man, darn grateful to have them this time. :)

Credit goes to Pauline for the birthday message. Maybe she realized I've been daydreaming loads so she came out with this. Here hoping the same too - may Jasmine start living the dream, not merely wishing all day. :P

P/S: Just in case you don't know, I still want you to know: JustJasmine just turned 19. ;)

Loving Birthday Wishes From Daddy Dearest

A lovely birthday wish by 123Greetings from Daddy

Facebook moment on my Birthday

Another e-card by CrossDaily from Daddy Dearest

Daddy's Daughter turns 19 today.

Thanks a lot, Daddy :)

Goodbye 18

Thanks for the memories.

Both bitter and the sweet ones.

I'm now waving with a heavy heart.

We both know it is hard.

You're leaving me.

Eighteen, finally.

Goodbye's the only word.

But both you and I know, we're gonna miss each other much.

More Than Just Lucky

Weeks back, I chit-chatted in Innit with Nath, Josh, and WenQ. We gossiped about how lucky Jun Jun was to receive a poem from Josh. By the way, Josh is one guy who is now more well-known as the Innit poem writer after getting Noble Award for Best BF Vacancy Award.

All of us complimented on Josh's creativity and Nath mentioned that she would love to receive a poem from Josh too, as a birthday gift. We continued chatting for some time and I told Josh that I never received any poems from any guys except from my poetic Daddy. He replied that I have a very loving Daddy which I agreed so well.

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This morning, I got an email notification.

Someone wrote on my Facebook Wall...

None other than him - my Daddy Dearest! :)

Once again, Daddy touched my heart with his poem. :D

Thanks for the poem, Daddy.

I'm putting it in my treasure box now.

I'll read it over and over again.

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Excitement is in the air!

I must say I'm more than just lucky - I'm blessed.

Never Loved At All

Maybe I was just too young and naïve to fall for you.
Maybe it was only me who felt that way.
Maybe that was merely crush at one direction.

Maybe it is right - we never loved at all.

September, My One Happy Month

This year, I welcome September with a happy heart.

:) :) :)

The cause of this happy happy joy joy-ness: Simple, because I'm aware that I have few beloved people to share the same birthday month with me!

:D :D :D

First, I have

2 Sept -- Isaac aka BestFriend

Next, is this one

13 Sept -- My Ji Mui aka Princess of Dang

Last but of course not least, the man that I heart very very very greatly

23 Sept -- My Daddy Dearest!

I choose to be happy, at least, in my own happy world.
So, don't ruin my happiness while I'm in my happyland.
Wake me up, only, when September ends.

P/S: When is your birthday? Are you a September baby too? Do tell me here.